|Posted by g on August 22, 2014 at 6:50 PM|
I tried so hard to justify and control my drinking. I so desperately wanted to drink like my normal peers. My alcoholic mind convinced me that putting space between my benders and improving other areas of my life would somehow free me from being an alcoholic. I would put together a month or two at a time balancing work, fitness and nutrition as my focus. Without warning the alcoholic in me would decide I was due a reward of sorts. The bender insued and I would wake up a couple days later in deep depression. I have carried this vicious cycle up for several years. I am tired, exhausted, and somehow relieved. I know I am out of drunken corners to hide in. Deep breath........Step One.
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